walking on Sonshine!

little by little one step at a time, He's changing my heart and renewing my mind (: teaching me how to be patient and kind little by little one step at a time! (:

Monday, March 28, 2005

im reallyreallreallyreallyreallyreallyreallREALLY beyond thankful for reaffirmation this easter. its just reallyreally special to me and ris and geri MWA i love you thanks for coming cos i miss you guys so much (:

i know this is only the beginning and when the workload starts piling up [like it is now] im gonna feel like screaming in the pillow again haha but learning to trust, beyond what i am humanly able to do, to let Him be my first refuge and not my last resort. to remember that no matter how horrifyingly bad things might turn out, He knows better than i- and He knows the way.

its been a long day and i have to chiong hw now but at the end of it all- Lord i love You and i thank you for Your sacrifice. (:

HE LIVES! -huggggggggggggggg

Thursday, March 24, 2005

i will offer up my life

i will offer up my life in Spirit and truth,
pouring out the oil of love as my worship to You.
to surrender i must give- my every part.
Lord, receive the sacrifice of a broken heart.

Jesus, what can i give, what can i bring.
to so faithful a friend, to so loving a King.
Savior, what can be said, what can be sung-
as a praise of Your Name, for the things You have done.

oh, my words could not tell, not even in part.
of the debt of love that is owed-
by this thankful heart.

You deserve my every breath, for You've paid the great cost.
giving up Your life to death, even death on a cross.
You took all my shame away, and defeated my sin,
opened up the gates of Heaven, and have beckoned me in.

Jesus, what can i give, what can i bring.
to so faithful a friend, to so loving a King.
Savior, what can be said, what can be sung-
as a praise of Your Name, for the things You have done.

oh, my words could not tell, not even in part.
of the debt of love that is owed-

by this thankful heart.



really learning what it means to trust in His perfect plan and do His will and not my own. to be thankful no matter the circumstance and find so much more joy in what i do. it really is difficult sometimes when i come back from school and i just want to knock out- but to find the discipline of mind and heart to follow Him and do what He wants me to do. and to honor my parents and learn to obey them no matter what difficult it is, and to know that i am blessed.

getting reaffirmed this easter and looking back now, im just amazed at how far He's brought me, through broken friendships, through the o's, through rough times and happy times, through times when i felt so distanced from Him [psalm139! (:] and in everything- oh, words could not tell, not even in part the debt of love that i owe, by this thankful heart (:

my parents and my dad especially. im being reminded that the a's are this year at LEAST five times a week and every morning i wake up its "oh no i have to study again." then after i do my quiet time my heart becomes a little more settled and im not so..grumpy anymore. haha. but the challenge is every morning, may my first thought be "Lord i love You and i thank You for this day. teach me to love others and accomplish all that i set out to do, cos i do it for You." im still learning, im still struggling, but im trusting, regardless. i will hang on for dear life no matter how painful it is - cos i know the price He paid.

im just reallyreally thankful that i get to sing during easter cos singing with the youth choir is just. wow. really a blessing to my heart and i do pray we'll be a blessing to the hearts of others too (:

for we have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. but while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. and He has "..saved us to the UTTERMOST." [heb7:25]

read a little of rachel's tears again today. and i look at the way she sought to follow Him and im just like. wow. i want to be like that, i want to be like timothy too- to let no one despise my youth but being an example to the believers in word, in conduct, in love, in spirit, in faith, in purity. [1tim4:12]

and phil2:14-16 to be blameless, and harmless children of His.

thought back a little on last easter and just giving thanks for what He's taught me through the past year, the ups and downs and the re-realising of truths that i have yet to grasp. after this easter i will look forward to next easter, i want to make that little dash in between these two dates, count. (:

love Him in the morning when you see the sun arise. love Him in the evening cos He took you through the day. and in the in-between time when you feel the pressure coming, remember that He loves You and He promises to stay. (: