ordinary day

I've lived a lot of life,
Seen so many things,
And I like to think,
Nothing surprises me,
So I try
To take it all in stride,
No matter what tomorrow brings

But Your plans for me
Aren't predictable,
And I find Your dreams
So incredible.
Never commonplace,
And in so many ways,
Always wild and wonderful

Oh, You keep me guessing,
Holding on tight
For the ride of my life
With You, all I can say,
There's no such thing as an ordinary day.

Since You write the script,
I must confess,
I don't always know
What will happen next,
Takes my breath away,
Takes a lot of faith,
'cause I don't know what to expect

Oh, You keep me guessing,
Holding on tight
For the ride of my life
With You, all I can say,
There's no such thing as an ordinary day.

Every time a new adventure unfolds,
I realise that I'm not the one in control.

Oh, You keep me guessing,
Holding on tight
For the ride of my life
With You, all I can say,
There's no such thing as an ordinary day.

the way He works through people, music and songs is just amazing (: haha ginny rocks!

honestly after today, i think i've seen enough miracles to last me a lifetime. it seemed like just yesterday when i last talked to my grandma about believing in Christ and then to her, 'easy believism' [all talk and no action] just seemed to be the way to go. and in the blink of an eye in the place of a NATO old lady [though i love her alot] i see someone else. still bubbly, still cheerful but theres this amazing spark of life that was never there before. i will never forget this day as long as i live. when she sat down at the lunch table and with my whole heart i can say the words she said in that short span of about two hours over lunch with all of us will remain like music in my ears always. i have absolutely no shadow of doubt that He can work wonders. as i watched her go on about His glory, how we must serve Him in each of our lives and not simply say the words, how we must remember that He can do everything [heal the lame, and cause the blind to see] and we cannot, how God gave her understanding the moment she came to full belief in Him and countless other things.

i didnt know what to say i just watched as she laughed and shared that same joy He gave her with me. half the time i pretended to be studying all the tears of joy and gratefulness welled up in my eyes cos honestly and truly with my whole heart, i know He answers prayer. He answered the ongoing prayer of long ago by bringing the old lady i love so much to the knowledge of Him and He answered the prayers i've been making the past few nights to once again draw me back to Him. anything is possible and in this really down part of my spiritual life, i am awed beyond anything and i can say-

theres no such thing as an ordinary day. (:

Baby cried the day the circus came to town
cause she didn't want parades just passing by her
So she painted on a smile and took up with some clown
While she danced without a net upon the wire
I know a lot about her cos, you see
baby is an awful lot like me

Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside, learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all

baby saw that when they pulled that big top down
They left behind her dreams among the litter
The different kind of love she thought she'd found
There was nothing left but sawdust and some glitter
But baby can't be broken cos you see
She had the finest teacher-that was me-I told her

Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
fly high and proud
and if you should fall, remember you almost had it all

its so difficult to get back on the right track but so easy to get thrown off track and thats basically how its been for the past few months. and sometimes i wonder if its just me. keeping focused is getting harder and harder and it reaches the point where i really feel like breaking. but i dont, cos theres this thread inside of me that holds me together, even when i feel like falling apart. and somehow no matter how far away i feel from Him at one point of time or another, theres still..hope (: and thats a good thing i guess im still kept very sane but just not living the way i would've liked to, or the way He would've wanted me to. gal5:25 it feels horrible but i dont find myself being driven to doing much and it just feels so spiritually dry and empty i've got a rough idea of whats holding me back and preventing me from progressing in my walk and its something that i know i have to deal with, and im gonna face up to it one way or another and i will move on.

the day is here, the time has come to sing a new song. its very clear i must move on, and sing a new song.

Oh, You keep me guessing,
Holding on tight
For the ride of my life
With You, all I can say,
There's no such thing as an ordinary day.
Since You write the script,
I must confess,
I don't always know
What will happen next,
Takes my breath away,
Takes a lot of faith,
'cause I don't know what to expect

and somehow He always seem to speak to me in ways i never understand (: i finally got to hear ginny's 'ordinary day' and whaddya know? it all fits. thank You.

i dont always know what will happen next, it takes alot of faith (:

theres no such thing as an ordinary day. (:

oh man mandy i love you. *mwa*

dear God give me the courage to change the things i can, the patience to accept the things i cant, and the wisdom to know the difference.

dont stop praying for me, even though it may seem, everythings fine in this life of mine. dont stop praying for me, for theres no way to see, what kind of load waits for me down the road.

theres no such thing as an ordinary day (:

a new song

I've been grazing in the lush green pastures,
Watching time pass me by,
And I've been wading in the shallow waters,
Where everything is all right-
But today I know that something's different,
Something's disturbing my peace,
Oh, I can feel the changes in the distance,
And hear them calling to me-

The day is here, the time has come
To sing a new song,
It's very clear, I must move on,
And sing a new song,
It will define who I become,
This new song,
So show me how to sing along
To this new song-

I've been looking in the strangest places,
to find the source of my strength,
And even though the outcome never changes,
Still I search endlessly,
But no more wandering around in circles,
It's time that I cross the sea,
Now I'm trading in my cozy corner
For the bigger mystery

Going there means leaving here,
Saying yes means saying no,
Moving on means letting go of what is sure,
For more

v thankful that even now im still able to hold that candle of hope in my hand, and though my vision sometimes blurs, wind blows and the flame flickers that light has never gone out and im just thankful that i can see that light, not blinded by it. learning very much how to practise self-control to prevent myself from committing murder towards people that shoot their mouths off without thinking and heh big situation for application of FOS from family camp (:

learning to move on from friendships i thought would last forever. wrong, as always heh well not always.. but when His love holds the friendship together, thats when it lasts thats why mutual exhortation and loving each other [yes onethreefourhalfandma] and the rest of the fast growing trees in bethany :D

sup horrified at the extent to which people have changed and i just get really traumatised and scared for them when they go clubbing. i cant even recognise you anymore. dont let the people around you shape who you are, dont let him take control. let Him. saying yes to Him means saying no. can you?but im still praying.

theres no such thing as an ordinary day. when i feel like im falling i will hold on to You.

"the wind blows where it wishes, and you hear the sound of it but cannot tell where it comes from or where it goes. so is everyone who is born of the Spirit." -john3:8

You are the Sonshine of my life! thats why i'll always stay around (: You are the apple of eye- forever You'll stay in my heart (:

land of the grey

There's a young Mother with three children
Got a stable income and a faithful husband, too.
She's searching for her life's meaning,
So she says to her shrink, "I'm leaving home soon!"
Just decided that she couldn't take it anymore,
Didn't look back, she just snuck out the back door-

What is wrong with this picture?
We applaud this behavior
Admire how she breaks away-
Oh, it's so clearly cloudy, in the land of the grey.

There's a young Senator,
Gifted politician,
So consumed by pursuing his career.
Use to care about what the people wanted,
But now he's learned how to say what they wanna hear.
A million lies and scandals bear his name,
But you'll never see him hide his face in shame-

What is wrong with this picture?
We applaud this behavior
He's a hero if he makes mistakes-
Oh, it's so clearly cloudy in the land of the grey.

What's wrong? What's right? Absolute confusion.
What's black? What's white? Everything looks hazy.
Such scenarios bring me to only one conclusion-
Maybe we've all gone crazy.

Three little kids are praying mama comes home,
And a little town feels violated and betrayed.
Meanwhile, two very unhappy people
Try to excuse the messes that they've made.
But you'll never hear it stated quite that way,
Cos we can't handle it here in the land of the grey.

came across another ginny favorite :D im not exactly into the cut of the conscience but i guess it takes alot of different factors music, messages, His word and people to whack you out of horrible sinking sand and everyone needs reminders now and again cos we're human and humans forget. went a little into 1john during sunday school and about how after we enter His REALM [rie's big word heh] none of us should, knowing its clearly wrong continue in the way of sin. we're all gonna sin anyway cos we're horrible wretched creatures but that doesnt mean we dont try our best to walk in Him and day by day grow more into His likeness. its really sad to watch people sit there and tell themselves "i dont deserve His forgiveness no i dont cos im too horrible to be forgiven" and they psycho themselves and push away this perfect offer of salvation.

1john3:20 says "for if our heart condemns us, God is greater than our hearts and knows all things."

and He does. sometimes i really wonder how on earth i can doubt this great God that has given up His everything for me. i wonder why im scared of circumstances in life and why i try to reason with Him and tell Him "i really want this, i REALLY want this" wheni clearly know He knows better than i do, and all He asks is for us to rest in His love and ABIDE.

God is in control, we believe that His children will not be forsaken [luke12:32 "do not fear little flock, for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom."]

it must've been wild angels Him. baby, what else could it be? (:

call me beautiful

I've been waiting,
For a hero who's brave and strong
Someone to love me,
Someone to tell me I belong,
But I pretend I'm satisfied,
As I stand watching from the sidelines,
Till You pull me in to the light
And say, "It's Your turn now,
Welcome to your life!"

And You call me beautiful,
Say You've loved me all along,
And You've always held the keys to unlock my soul
Oh You call me beautiful.

There's a smile on my face,
And a brand new light in my eyes,
It's a new day,
And I've never felt so alive
I feel as if I could conquer anything
Oh that's what Your love has done for me,
And now all I want to be,
Is everything You say I can be

Oh You call me beautiful,
Say You've loved me all along,
And You've always held the keys
To unlock my soul, But I didn't know
Now I can finally start to live,
Take those changes I have missed,
Things will be so different,
Now that I know
You call me beautiful.

The story is better than I could dream after all,
Now this is reality
To know You and to hear You call me beautiful
Call me beautiful

it is clear, i must move on. it must've been wild angels Him. baby, what else could it be? :D

Lord You've given me so much

Lord You've given me so much,
brought me this far in a short time.
still theres so much room to grow,
help me to never stop, never stop searching for
ways i can serve You more.

when i look back through the years,
time after time i would fall from You.
still You gently pick me up,
gave me a second chance, brought me back home at last
grace so amazing to me.

the way You work through me is a mystery,
but help me see how i can be-
more of Your helper,
more of Your child,
more of Your image inside.

Lord You're given me so much,
friends and loved ones surround my day
yet in one who gave His life,
i found the perfect peace, i found the perfect expression-
of love in this world.

help me to never stop, never stop searching for ways that i can serve You more.

struggling struggling alot with the same old issues i've been fighting since..really long ago. but the joy in me i will hold onto and the hope will never fade away :D

"this hope we have as an anchor for the soul, both sure and steadfast and which enters the Presence behind the veil." -hebrews 6:19

i guess things get to me really easily but over time i've learnt from it and now i've realised that hey NOTHING should ever be able to dampen your spirits cos of the joy overflowing, love everlasting and peace like a river in your soul (: joyjoyjoyjoyjoy! cos thats the single thread thats keeping me sane..bleh i hate gp work but ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE!

im walkin' on Sonshine.. :D

my God loves me HAHAH! wahaha i'll never forget the way pastor did it.. faint and die of laughter :D but the kind of joy He gives is reallyreallyREALLY wonderful and i dont think i'll ever stop gushing over it.. cos its just this happy warm feeling that picks you up when you feel like screaming your lungs out or crying till your tears run dry, well stuff like that (:

[john7:37-38] He really is like living water, learning to have a much greater consciousness of His word and being a testimonial to those around me that have yet to see this really wonderful truth. i know i've totally failded in being a good testimony but after so long of digressing and refusing to admit to the problem, i believed that He could grant me back that joy, and HE HAS :D He who begun a good work in you will be faithful to complete it (:

i never want to lose that sense of wonder.

God IS with us

A rushing river sweeps around us
Just as dark and cold as night, it surrounds us
But we pass through the water to a safer shore
We're sheltered from the raging river's roar

Though the night is long
And the river's strong
Still God is with us
We can stem the tide
Reach the other side
For God is with us

The river deepens, night grows darker
And the struggle seems to be getting harder
Today has troubles yesterday has never known
But we don't have to face them on our own

Though the night is long
And the river's strong
Still God is with us
We can stem the tide
Reach the other side
For God is with us

And when we face the river's roll
He holds our hand and won't let go

(:

If somebody lets you down
Don't you want to turn away and run for cover
Don't let it steal your joy don't let it destroy
Cos in it all you know we need each other
It's by design that we're in it together

learning newer bigger lessons each day and its reallyreally a great joy! haha it just feels..great. the kind of joy a conscious knowledge of His love brings is just amazing, and its something i never, never never wanna lose again (:

amazingly pastor talked about God's love and he said one thing that really struck me- what is it to you if you're loved by the whole world but hated by God? and this verse came to mind:

"coming to Him as to a living stone, rejected indeed by men, but chosen by God and precious." -1peter2:4

and i know how much it hurts when people disappoint you and when things just dont go the way you wish it would. and its always a challenge to turn my eyes back on what really matters and stop focusing on my failures and inadequacies cos they're countless and i will never be happy if i keep dwelling on them. we were never meant to lose that joy or that first love for Him and i never wanna do that, ever again.

hey dears[1three4 1/2ma]- we're in it together, cos that's the way He meant it to be (:

food poisoning and getting a jab at one am in the morning is not good for the body but its good for the soul :D such an ouch painful ordeal last night but im just glad its over and thanking God i didnt die or anything so (: bleh i remember the last time i got it i felt the pangs of pain till four am until i couldnt take it anymore this time i was smarter heh i went earlier so i suffer less heh

came across a message on psalm 37 in my notebook this morning 081103. and its a beautiful psalm, really it is (: it tells of His faithfulness and goodness to those who love Him and reminds believers to "dwell in the land" and "feed on His faithfulness" and learn to trust Him. that even though there may be times when they wicked seem to prosper and the good beaten down, that wont be the case for long cos[psalm37:9]- "evildoers will be cut-off but those who wait on the Lord, they shall inherit the earth."

no good thing will He withhold from His people [luke12:32]- "do not fear little flock, for it is you Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom."

so though it may be difficult sometimes im gonna try hard to cancel my will out of my life and focus on His will- cos thats what really matters (:

im just plain scared now.

"You are of God little children, and have overcome the world. for He who is in you is greater than He who is in the world." -1john4:4

heh THOUGHT OF THE DAY: the intelligence level of guys is inversely proportional to the number of guys gathered together

whoa i almost died laughing when i read that heh arts people have wit i cant deny that anymore- especially when he's speaking about his own gender wahahah

:D

but aside from things that make me laugh till my sides split im alot happier about today, walking a little more steadily than usual, being alot more conscious of His presence and not getting drawn so much into the whirlwind of things (:

john15:17 (: heh reviewing past messages is reallyreally nice esp remembering the period during the o's when i wrote stuff to encourage myself and remind myself of His continual presence in my life. may sound stupid when i remember how bad i wanted the o's to be over, but i kinda miss that time. cos it just seemed so much easier to be focused and trust in Him even when things just didnt seem to go the way i wanted and i watched people put in half of the effort i put into my studies and emerging with the same results and though it kinda got to me, keeping in mind the fact that my future matters to God and with the people He gave to walk with me, encourage and exhort me i will forever be thankful for (:

and it hurts alot when people turn their back on you and things just dont seem to go the way you want it to but all the affliction seemed so much easier to bear. now it just gets painful and horrifying in itself. trusting is a lesson i gotta relearn with time and alot of effort but when i learn how to lean my whole self onto Him and His will, everything will be ok (: on the road to recovering that closeness and level of trust and being able to say "Lord, come what may."

if i've seen how He looks at me through eyes of love, He looks through the cross. and that is one sacrifice that surpasses all else and one thing that i know i have to hold onto whether my life goes the way i want it to, or not (:

He is a path, if any be misled;
He is a robe, if any naked be;
If any chance to hunger, He is bread;
If any be a bondman, He is free;
If any be but weak, how strong is He!
To dead men life He is, to sick men health;
To blind men sight, and to the needy wealth;
A pleasure without loss, a treasure without stealth.

dear God, grant me the courage to change the things i can, to accept the things i cant, and the wisdom to know the difference (:


haha dears i love you -hug-

for no soldier entangles himself with the things of the world. dont ever give up.

whoa i cant remember the last time i was this pissed..the i feel like throttling someone and banging my head against the wall kinda pissed whoooooooo i know what i gotta learn peace, gentleness SELF-CONTROL whoa i cant stand it if i was in japan and still considered a delinquent i think i'd just take a kitchen knife and chop someone up EURGH

i hate getting myself fed up and flustered over such rubbish and well its the second time im gonna have to learn the lesson about not caring about what people say about me.. i know its just all teasing and stuff but wah crap it can get really EURGH and everything so yups heh i dealt with it with much prayer and faith in secondary school and i will deal with it again.. heh YES I WILL :D

haha God is so cool its such a small world haha jia is in cherie chan's class :D hurm and now im being bugged by her to write my letter to owl so she'll win some bet HAIYO and im just thankful to have the kind of friends that i do (: friends that remind me, encourage me, exhort and love me for who i am. [even with the TREMENDOUS amounts of misgivings i have] thankyou dears numberone, three, fourandahalf, ma and all the recent additions that havent been assigned a number yet- He gave us each other along this Christian road, keep walking i love you! (:

no greater love. He's showing me His love through all the people around me, i want to show them His love through me too.

"do not fear little flock, for it is your Father's good pleasure to GIVE you the kingdom." -luke12:32

i never want to doubt that all He gives me is for the best and He loves me just as i am. never doubt that He will give all the best to the children He loves the most (:

when You see me like this, and when You touch me like that, it was gone for awhile, but its all coming back to me (:

listen to the rhythm of the falling rain..dont you think its beautiful? (:

its all coming back to me now (: