picture perfect world.

We circle winter spring, and summer to fall
Spend a lifetime tryin' to make some sence of it all
Trip over questions raise by fallen men
As if there are solutions for the state we're in

In a picture perfect world, there would be no crime
In a picture perfect world, we'd be free
In a picture perfect world, we'd be colorblind
But's all right, I know that we'll be cared for
All right, a place is prepared for
All right, 'cause sooner or later we'll be
In the picture perfect world

Another summer, autumn, winter and spring
We grow accustomed to the nature of things
Do we chase the questions we ccan't figure out
And overlook what is is all about

In a picture perfect world, there would be no pain
In a picture perfect world, we'd believe
In a picture perfect world, love is not in vain
But's it's all right, I know we'll be cared for
All right, a place is prepared for
All right, 'cause sooner or later we'll be
In a picture perfect world

We are here but a moment and then the moment's gone
So why spend precious time we can't afford
We have only one pupose before the curtain's drawn
With all our lives, for the cause of Christ, we must glorify the Lord

In a picture perfect world, there will be no pain
In a picture perfect world, we'd be free
In a picture perfect world, love is not in vain
And it's all right, I know will be cared for
All right, a place is prepared for
All right, 'cause sooner or later we'll be
In a picture perfect world

in a picture perfect world. (: results were the first thing that came to mind when i got up this morning, i dont know why but i figure it has something to do with daph screaming it into everyones system yesterday haha but well. i thought about all the bloopers i made during a's, disastrous gp, and not to mention the fact that food chem was just one big fat guessing game. haha and technically i still do think my a is completely gone. then my mind wandered back to the idea of trust. what it means to me to leave all of this in His hands without a doubt or worry. what it means to believe its all taken care of, its all in control. in a picture perfect world, there would be no pain. im sure if i dont do well there will be pain, alot of it cos i worked so hard for the a's. but while there is sorrow, can i trust that He has a reason for this and He'll bring me thru regardless of how hard it may be? and the answer must be a resounding yes (:

as i gear myself towards getting my results, its a process of letting go and letting Him. of putting faith into action, and growing in understanding of what it means to trust. haha i still think trust is such a lofty concept and not something that is easily understood or grasped. haha rie calls the new church phrase '_____ is the concept'. and for me, trust IS the concept. but then theres many others too- joy is the concept, love is the concept, faith is the concept, hope is the concept and about a million others. while reading matthew i also came across the parable of the young ruler, and how he was unable to give up all to follow Him. but while with man this is impossible, with God all things are possible. in all i do, i honor You.

and i trust one day we'll be, in a picture perfect world ;)

give us clean hands, give us pure hearts, let us not lift our hands to another.

read matt18:21-35 last night about the parable of the unforgiving servant. guess it reminded me again of the debt of love that i owe. strangely, the idea of being a debtor was mentioned today at morning service. think i have loads to learn about forgiveness! He said to forgive up to seven times seven times. and i find it hard to forgive even up to seven times. i've lots to learn! with much prayer, i will learn to grow (:

and He said whoever leaves his house, his brother, sister, father or mother for me, I will return a hundredfold in heaven, and we are given ETERNITY. how much more could we ask? without question, to take up my cross and follow Him.

work's getting so hectic! haha but im really thankful i have my friends and one nice supervisor so thats enough ;) haha i just feel like doing work for that one person and ignoring all the rest heh cos its just so nice to see someone smile and say thank you when you've finished a piece of work rather than stoned faces half the time. haha but anw, my neighbour asked me to babysit for her! haha i didnt think she'd actually take me up on my offer to babysit for free but anw haha i really want to! the kids are adorable. the small one actually haha the older one is a little fierce but anw. but she wants to weekend though which is quite unlikely haha shall call her laterrr maybe just saturday mornings haha which MEANS i have to sacrifice my beauty sleep. but oh well anything for little liquan he's SO CUTE

haha i heard this song on the radio today, its 'save the best for last' by vanessa williams:

Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes 'round the moon
I see the passion in your eyes
Sometimes it's all a big surprise
'Cause there was a time when all I did was wish
You'd tell me this was love
It's not the way I hoped or how I planned
But somehow it's enough

And now we're standing face to face
Isn't this world a crazy place
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

All of the nights you came to me
When some silly girl had set you free
You wondered how you'd make it through
I wondered what was wrong with you

'Cause how could you give your love to someone else
And share your dreams with me
Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see

And now we're standing face to face
Isn't this world a crazy place
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see

Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes 'round the moon
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

You went and saved the best for last

haha i love the tune and everything and i think its such a sweet song! though it really doesnt happen in real life but anw heh

been reading psalm119 this week and it really is a challenge to hide His Word in my heart cos sometimes laziness comes in, procrastination and all the bad stuff that comes along with it and that kinda hinders me in my walk. then i remind myself how much He's given to me and though its hard, i hold on. 1john5:3 says "for this is the love of God, that we keep His commandments. and His commandments are not burdensome."

and it really does remind me time and again that the Christian walk was MEANT to be joyful, carefree. cos im free today, but i choose to follow Him. but yet the evil one can use dozens of ways and means to twist our outlook of life till walking with Him becomes a chore, an obligation. thats why i've looked around and seen so many who've found Him real in their lives and walked away, literally from the treasures of His promises. and it scares me cos i never want to be that way, i never want to walk away. the evangelistic approach bethany is taking this year, i think is really apt in the light of whats been happening in recent times. cynics say 'we Christians' treat it as a numbers game. but its not. never has, never will be. because i have friends around me that i love and want to bring to the Lord, im praying so much more that the burden for lost souls will always be heavy upon my heart.

sometimes the snow comes down in june, sometimes the sun goes round the moon. strange things happen, just like miracles that only He can perform. so lets keep praying, trying to be like Him. (:

i've got good reason to be happy today!
the Lord took all my cares away
i cant stop singing what a wonderful day!
since i found the Lord!

things've been getting harder these few days to deal with all thats coming at me haha who would've thought when school ended things would still be this hard. haha just read through 1peter3 and the idea of suffering for His sake and being blessed is such a wonderful thought. ipkenneth brought up the idea of really recognising and accepting our sinful nature and appreciating the power of His sacrifice, and i guess its still a concept that im grappling with, but seeking to find much joy in the process (:

learning, learning. He's the Lord of everything that i am. (:

haha i finally saw cass and joey today. we're all broke so we brought sandwiches and sat by the river and ate. we are SO cheapskate. haha and we watched a group sing at esplanade! the sop sounded so nice there was RESONANCE theres like none when i sing. GAH but oh well haha i will go for singing lessons soon! haha

have officially begun serving in ypg1 and it really is a joy! really. though it is kinda tiring cos i've been chairing the past two weeks and one more to go this week! but thankfully i have a gooooooodddd group and we all help each other and we all survive together! haha. easter concert prep is extremely serious this time round and its so exciting to see how we're gonna progress [fast i hope!] in the next few weeks (: the musical is so..deep. i guess we never fully understand the depth of His sacrifice. pastor's hw this week is looking at how we can apply the concepts we're learnt from romans1-8 into our daily lives. slowly but surely, i can see the Lord changing me [though i really do have a longggggggggg way to go before i become who He wants me to be] and i guess romans5 struck me the most when i was reading it today. through One Man's obedience, more were saved and justified through faith than the number condemned through one man's disobedience. and im beginning to understand much more what it means when it says in romans5:19 that where 'sin abounded, grace abounded much more'. (:

sometimes people say things that really cut and thats been happening alot recently and you realise that the friendships you hold dear to your heart arent as strong or as stable as you thought they were. lots of things have happened recently and after my mom started on me the other day i just sat down in my room and cried. but yet in my moments of weakness, when things around fail, i was reminded of the lesson of trust pastor preached during morning service. trust, with faith unshaken to do all for His glory. i guess some of the problems i face are self-created because i fail to look inwardly and deal with my own sin problems. talked to pastor mitch about it the other day and we both agreed i have to deal with myself first before i blame anyone else for the problems that occur. and then i decided for myself that i really really really should listen to what pastor mitch said and learn to be more gracious towards others. cos right now when things happen, its just me me me. IM hurt, IM this IM that. what about Him? thats what i ask myself now. what about HIS sacrifice, HIS blood, HIS love. will i ever be forgiven, if He dies because of me. and He has died for me and i AM forgiven. now and always. He paid the great price, who am i to judge?

a God bigger than my mind. in the world, not of the world.

photos from prom and Christmas!



rie and i! (:



celll and me



fatcheeks ian



me and rie againnn



mr act cool mun and us haha



clarieee



bert and me



bobo and me



my hair!



vainpot ;p



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us three haha



pretty zhihui haha



teri!



me and soon-to-be-married sharon haha



me and ben



aww the flower teri gave me haha



the sleepy brother



smile!

looking forward so much to this year, hope every moment will be as great as every photo (: to smile and find joy! haha im really excited over pastors homework im till chapter7 of romans now and its getting harder to fill up the list pastor gave us, but still, joy (:

im trying to memorise psalm111 now haha on the bus on the way to work (: dear eugene thought i was trying to memorise deuteronomy -_- HMMMMMM im struggling with psalms and he thinks im trying deuteronomy. haha but regardless, learning about tax can be quite taxing [hee sorry!] but im trying, and finding joy! (:

lets keep trying, trying to be like Him (:

much love,chael (: