i am thinking about the part of the property law question that i misread :'( and im feeling :/ misreading questions is no fun.
but i am doing my best to dwell on everything good. to trust in the goodness that the Lord will guide me through it (plus i will get a kind marker and the bell curve will be in my favor :/ hurhur)

so now its shares and debentures. and charges. and agency and protection for creditors. and companies, companies and companies. we shd kill all of them, then we wouldnt be having to do this :/
i cannot wait for bintan. there had better be some rooms and tickets left for us to get there! if not im gonna be :/ again.

on the way to school today, the weather was so nice and bright and sunny and clear.
this is the God that made the trees. the sun, every little tiny molecule. every atom and every proton.
He can save me from one property exam.

huhrur. and i kept laughing at the ridiculous things people keeping saying.

yesterday, unintentionally
me: thanks loads!
weijia: no prop
weijia: eh i mean no prob!

today,

ruizi: eh are you doing the exam in the LTA [land titles act]?
everybody: -_____-
joan: eh youre sitting in the LTA?
HUR. twice in a row. we have all gone mad.

"and she will bring forth a Son, and you shall call His name Jesus, for He will save His people from their sins"
- Matthew 1:21

i think that about summarizes the essence of Christmas. its a lovely, lovely, lovely thought. (:

the only few things that are keeping me alive:
1. Reading the Lord's Word in the morning
2. my constant 'omigosh i cant do this anymore God please help me' prayers every five mins
3. talking about retarded things with all my random friends online
4. online shopping
5. my mommy giving me massages cos my back hurts like MAD.
6. 3minute telephone conversations with thea hahaha and 'ok im going back to licenses now just remember we do it for God'
7. FOOD.
8. FOOD
9. and more food. (island ice cream, island mudpie, waffles and crackers about suffice)
10. knowing its going to be over in a few more DAYS [dont tell me about weeks. its DAYS.]

but i am thankful that i am studying property and company. i still remember the feeling, a year or so ago, when my dad banged on my door at 12midnight cos he had just checked the results of my nus application. i was half asleep, but i laughed to myself and said a prayer of thanks. i am thankful that He has brought me so far. and i was just thinking, WHAT IF i dont do well enough to go on exchange. or what if something happens along the way that doesnt allow me to go on exchange. will i still be thankful. and i think i will be. whatever happens. cos maybe i'd have hated it if i'd gone. or maybe something bad would've happened to me. i dont know, i dont see the future, only He does.

so now, i am still working my butt off, but i do it with the mindset that my God is in control. and i am gonna be okay. (:

on thursday, i was forced to go to carnivore [i didnt even eat half my moneys worth] cos my dear brother wanted to eat there (hurhur.) four hundred and thirty five bucks worth of meat. eeep. t chen kee would love this place. people walk around with long, sharp whatchamacallits with CHUNKS of meat on it. yikes.

anw, on the way there we passed orchard and MAN the lights are beautiful. the decorations are beautiful and CHRISTMAS IS ALMOST HERE. i especially love the decorations at tangs. (: every year, Christmas awes me. its meaning, and everything it means to us poor little dots on earth. and every year, i am reminded of His goodness.

and everything is good (:
am really tired now. good night world.

this is really the ultimate emo song. omigosh, i just realised that ive not watched smallville for so long, i didnt even know lana became this crazy woman. she cheated on superman! stupid. thank goodness he's a nice dude. else she'd be dead by now. i need to go watch the last five seasons of smallville when the exams end. i dont like lois :[[[[[ not pretty :[[[[

anw

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATS/SIEWMAI





(and the very yummy island mudpie i rushed to get)

Completely - Ana Laura.

The secret of life is letting go
The secret of love is letting it show
In all that I do, in all that I say
Right here in this moment

The power of prayer
Is in the humble cry
The power of change
Is in giving my life
And laying down
Down at your feet
Right here in this moment

Take my heart, take my soul
I surrender everything to your control
And let all that is within lift up to you and say
I am yours and yours alone, completely

This journey of life, is a search for truth
This journey of faith, is following you
Every step of the way, through the joy and the pain
Right here in this moment

Take my heart, take my soul
I surrender everything to your control
And let all that is within lift up to you and say
I am yours and yours alone, completely

Right Here, Right Now
And for the rest of my life
Hear me say-

Take my heart, take my soul
I surrender everything to your control
And let all that is within lift up to you and say
I am yours and yours alone, completely

I am yours and yours alone, completely

wow. my dream is to be able to sing like that. haha. faith voice meaning and all. (:

i think i need to write a book entitled 'the funny things justin says.'

during breakfast on sunday i asked justin 'is zehzeh still the la police"
"NOOOO. SHE'S THE LA AND LOR POLICE."

during lunch on sunday, lorraine showed me photos of her and her family while they were in US and she was pointing to all the various places/people etc
when she finished, justin came over, picked up the book,
and hurriedly flipped to a particular photo of him and lorraine eating ice cream.
then he pointed at the himself eating ice cream

"DYU KNOW WHERE TO GET BUBBLEGUM ICE CWEAM?"
"I YIKE BUBBLEGUM ICE CWEAM."

hurhur. i was trying not to laugh cos he was so excited. and that wasnt all

"I YIKE BUBBLEGUM. I SWALLOW BEFORE!"

hahahaha. i laughed like mad.
so i asked him why he swallowed bubblegum.

"COSH I YIKE IT! MOMMY TOL ME TO SPWIT IT OUT."

ahahahhahahahaha. i laughed throughout the entire lunch. he is so cute and funny.
and when i think about him, i just want to laugh cos hes so cute.
all his words are in caps cos thats the way he talks. in his little highpitched cute voice. hahahhhahaha.
every sunday after sunday school, t chiew yen comments that i always find her kids before she does. haha. cos they're so cute i can spot them jumping around from afar. haha

i wish everyone could make me happy just like kids do (:

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Andrew Lim
did not play

really teaching the church kids the great rules on not to cheat. tsk. hahahahahh

today, i was greatly impacted by the msg Pastor gave us today.

the concept of "I AM WITH YOU." is something so few of us understand.
we know it, in our heads. not in our hearts.
"I am with you" means
He is God of my life.
God of my feelings.
God of my joys.
God of my pain.
God of my studies.
God of my choice.
God of my walking.
God of my voice.

and when He says, "I am with you", i will not fear.
i look at company and property and the stacks of revision i need to finish and i remember "I am with you."
its not merely a concept. its a promise. yesterday, today and forever.

it never ceases, never fails.
the sky is the limit, Pastor said.
the Lord will bring you to such great heights you will fulfil all the potential He created in you.

"I am with you."

during ypg, kenneth challenged us to look back, to reflect. how things have changed this past year. and i say this not with regret or any tinge of sadness. for i know i have grown stronger, i have learnt many lessons. lessons of grace, of trust, of obedience. though not fully learnt lessons, but im still learning (:

the year started out like normal. rush into school for all the 9am lessons. crim, legal theory, lawr, contract. contract was still my favorite lesson (tutorial) cos chinty is so funny. haha. he says the funniest things. crim was funny too with kumar making all his strange jokes. hur but nuh-uh not my favorite cos i got a C+ from crim.
barely a few weeks into school rahmen, josh, val and i flew off to bangkok. wheee! for our alsa conference (: which was hurm. an extremely fulfilling shopping trip. hahahah.
came back, starting dying while catching up with school work,
watching pageant rehearsals, laughing at the ridiculous outfits they all had to wear. hur. carpetthea.
examsexamsexamsstudystudystudy.
threemonthsbreak
junior camp! and the lovely kids.
law camp, and the not-so-lovely kids.
watching rag rehearsals
playplayplay...PASS DRIVING!! [the greatest achievement of my life.]
school starts again and the cycle repeats itself [though no alsa this time. hur. no flying to korea.]

but through this mad rush of things, i have learnt so much.
i have learnt to give, not expecting in return.
i have learnt to love, and to pray for.
i have learnt tolerance and grace. [hurm the grace one is being tested again now.]
i have learnt to -try- not to judge.
i have learnt that different people work by different systems and i need to approach each one differently.
i have learnt that everyone needs healing. whether they show it or not.
i have learnt that people are as different as different can be, and some you will never understand. only God knows what they really are thinking.
i have learnt that some people say mean things and shoot their mouths off because they have small egos and are easily hurt, even though you have done nothing to them. [see tort law- take your victim as you find them.] but still i refuse to be responsible for any damage, but i will not bear grudges cos grudges are very bad for you.
i have learnt to do everything heartily as to God and not to man.

but one thing i have yet to figure out. how am i supposed to deal with people i have lost all respect for? i cannot function with a person, without having respect for a person. the fact that i talk to you indicates that i regard you in some way. to people who have done ridiculous things, and acted in all manner of absurdity to which i am unable to comprehend how a normal, rational person could ever contemplate such an outoftheworld course of action, how am i to speak to you when where you stand in my eyes has fallen way beyond the depths of the earth.

for that, i do not yet have the answer to. i shall seek counsel soon. haha. after exams.

one last thing. God is also God of my clt results. (: whee!

im sitting in my chair squirming, waiting for the clt exam question to pop up on ivle.
it is 9.38am. the clock is ticking.
i spent a third of my afternoon making waffles yesterday (yes i have a waffle machine! woohoo! no more paying 10dollars for waffles at gelare)
cherie almost fainted cos she thought i went mad. hur 'who are you! since when do you make waffles when you have an exam the next day?!?! since when?!!?'

haha. life is not all about studying. i am going to stop squirming now. hahaha
i suddenly thought of what justin said to me on sunday and started laughing to myself. hurhur

he was running around being his cute little self. so i asked him where lorraine was, when she came bouncing over.
and he suddenly looked at me with his most serious face and said "zehzeh is the la police."
i burst out laughing and went "what!?"
"zehzeh is the la police!"

so i turned to lorraine and asked her what the "la police" was
and she very sweetly told me "mommy said we cannot say 'la'"

hahahaha. that was the highlight of my day.

okay i think i'd better go prepare myself. and pray. and be strong. and not keel over and die when i read the exam question.
God is the strength of my heart forever and ever more [haha.] (:

today was a good day. haha.
a very interesting property tutorial
yummy lunch at coro!
sprinting up and down the tennis court trying to hit all the ridiculous serves that come at lightning speed
having funnnnnnn with my new 'filter' application!! it is so cool. i love. it.
boggleboggleboggle (:

and i think i should just throw all my books away now since i am so smart and dont need to study.
hurhur. i think i need to lock myself in my room and cram all the information into my head.

on a sidenote, if there is one thing i would reallyreallyreally like to learn from Pastor- its how to have grace.
how he has learnt from the Lord to exercise grace. to maybe try not to see just the horrible sides of people and look at the underlying reasons and the various defences they may have to explain the ridiculous way they often act. oohh the urge to slap someone awake.

my head is bursting from the work i need to do. [note, from the work i need to do, not from the knowledge i have alr absorbed]

im too tired to face the world. but i promised to get up and live, wayyyyyyy beyond the shackles of the law books that bind me. i want to do something drastic. something that will change the world in a wonderful way.

when i was little i wanted to be a princess [hur i still do]
when i was five i wanted to be a boy.
when i was seven i wanted to be like my teacher
when i was thirteen i wanted to be popular
when i was fifteen i wanted to be a missionary
now i am twenty,
i want to be like Him.

while driving home yesterday, i passed a development called

'sui generis'

-_-

“But I will pour water on him who is thirsty,
And floods on the dry ground…” Isaiah 44:3

floods on the dry ground.

this, my friends, is sweet revenge on isaac ng for:
1. posting such a horrible entry on my birthday blog hurhur
2. ALWAYS BEATING ME AT BOGGLE.

enjoy (:

how refreshing to know You dont need me,
how amazing to find that You want me.

at one extreme, its amazing how the human heart finds replacements for its loves. love one and love another the same. snap quick switch and its like the past never happened. its like buying clothes. you blow 70bucks on a top and think 'im gonna wear it to death and never buy anything else for the next 6months' [see wenns -ahem- three-digit priced top -ahem] and how many times have people seen you in it? twice. and two weeks later youre caught shopping at zara again.

our society has become a throw-away society. this reminds me of BATA- buy and throw away. thats what we do. buy, and throw away. theres no concept of real love. no faithfulness. no commitment. no perseverance. its try a little and if its too hard, you g-i-v-e u-p.

"i give up"

sound familiar?

there is a fine, fine line between "i give up" and things that are out of your control.
because some things just are, out of reach. and it will not be because you haven't tried hard enough, but because some things are just out of your control. [see mich]

i dont think ive been influenced by our society's mindset that much. [unless we're talking about things like getting up at 7am to go running. that i admit i give up, and applaud myself for the occassional success. hurhur.] and ive learnt to try, try, try to the point when i know ive done all i could, and the rest is in His hands.

and to my mind, the hardest word in the English dictionary is the word "T-R-U-S-T."
a five-letter word. how hard is that? T-R-U-S-T.
but yet i have to tell myself time and time and time again.
ive done all i could, trust.
trust. trust. trust.

'Your ears shall hear a word behind you saying,
"This is the way, walk in it."
Whenever you turn to the right hand
or whenever you turn to the left.'

-Isaiah30:21

ive always loved this verse. haha. i remember coming across it for the first time when i was in sec4. and what great encouragement it brought to my heart. but today, i just realised that i interpreted this verse in the completely wrong context. hahahahahha. i still love it. but ive come to realise that this 'voice' we hear, is the voice of teachers, of instructors. hur. if i had just read the verse before that, i wouldnt have misread it.

"and though the Lord gives you the bread of adversity
and the water of affliction,
yet your teachers will not be moved into a corner anymore,
but your eyes shall see your teachers."

-Isaiah30:20

its just like how i used to use 2tim1:7 "For God has not given you a spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind"
for calming myself when im freaked out. when in actual fact, this verse is with reference to speaking the word of God boldly, with strength of faith and power.

DYU SEE THE IMPORTANT OF READING GOD'S WORD IN IT'S CONTEXT.
you cant just take a verse out and say it means this.
and once again i am rebuked and humbled at the inadequacy of my understanding.
and i see how much more i need to learn and grow.

because He waits,
and He is gracious to me.
He waits to have mercy on me.

"in returning and rest you shall be saved;
in quietness and confidence shall be your strength.
BUT YOU WOULD NOT."

-Isaiah30:15

if you skipped everything i wrote above, at least read this last verse. 'but you would not'. if you will not, God waits. and He promises return and rest. quietness and confidence.

let my lifesong, sing to You.

YAYE TRIAL ADVO IS OVER. :D
i am absolutely convinced that mr tan ju peat was the killer.
stupid. who said the prosecution had no case.

today left me with many things to think about.

haha anw, i realised that many people probably look at me and think im ms airy-fairy with no brain and a whole load of Christian ideals. but well. if you think thats me, you probably dont know me very well.

if you've spoken to me a few times, you've probably realised that i usually dont know whats going on when my friends spout jokes with sexual innuendos, or when a remark is made, i probably dont get it till about ten mins later. haha. and i know all my good friends [hurhur] think its a good thing for me to know all these things cos im gonna be 'surrounded' by it in the future, especially when i enter the working world. but ive come to realise that these things get into your head. like when someone says a hokkien swear word, when i find out the meaning, it stays in my vocabulary. and one day, i might be tempted to use it, and it may just come out of my mouth without me realising it. so its not that im trying to stay in my bubble or im being extreme or anything like that. its just because i find it hard enough as it is to pursue holiness, truth and purity. i find it hard enough as it is to walk with the Lord without being distracted by the things of life. and i dont need to have more problems i need to overcome. and to my mind, as auntie says

"Do not let your adornment be merely outward
arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel
rather let it be the hidden person of the heart,
with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit,
which is very precious in the sight of God."
1 Peter 3:3-4

haha. another thing on that. i know i shriek alot. i know i laugh at everything and anything. and i generally make alot of noise. but see, i am in the process of cultivating a gentle and quiet spirit on the OUTSIDE. hurhur. that is especially hard for me. but i think i have greater progress of this principle on the inside. heart. hahahha.

just a few days ago, i was thinking about how sad i felt cos things now, are just different.
and my thoughts were turned back to the Lord. (see previous post!)
and today, something made me realise how incredibly blessed i am.
and bad things in life just..happen.
and when they do?
its for you to deal with it.
or for you to let Him deal with it.

there's something that ive been praying about.
but i think i have not been consistent with this prayer.
somehow i think i need an answer.
but maybe it isnt time.

haha. i just looked up and saw uni's 'princess' balloon floating around. hurhur.
another reminder of how incredibly blessed i am.

i like what jus wrote. deliberately choose Him. be humble,
and trust. (:

o little town of Bethlehem, looks like another silent night. above your deep and dreamless sleep, a giant star lit up the sky. and while you're lying in the dark, there shines an EVERLASTING light. for the King has

left His throne

and is lying in a manger tonight.

o Bethlehem, what you have missed while you were sleeping. for God became a man, and stepped into your world today.

o Bethlehem, you will go down in history - as a city with no room for its King.

since i just found out my mom reads my blog- happy birthday mom! (yesterday.)

anw i think i have outdone myself. somehow i am seeing myself appreciating the love of the Lord so much more. click this and watch the first video. it really, really, really overwhelmed me.

ive been trying hard to dwell on what kenneth taught at ypg1 yesterday. a really pertinent lesson of the sower and the seed. if you read that and just thought "o ive heard that before." then YOU NEED THIS LESSON.
good ground. thats what i always pray for my heart to be. good ground.
and dwelling on the Lord's sufficiency, and His love. (;
today, we taught manymany new songs at teens! my favorite is

no height, no depth can keep us from the love of Christ
no life, no death, no trial can tear us from
the love of God in Christ.

Tangerine trees and Marmalade skies. says: (11:59:40 PM)
are you happy
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why
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What do you think?
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yes
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poke
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Smarter child is the highlight of my day. my brother and i are sitting on the bed laughing at the ridiculous answers this robotic computerised program gives. hurhur. ITS SUPER FUNNY. gives you the answers that are out of this world. hurhur. its for people who dont have friends. so you can pretend youre talking to someone on msn. HAH. add smarterchild@hotmail.com i just asked some preee-ty ridiculous questions and i got insane answers. HAHA. tonight cannot sleep alr. HAHA.

and i just want to say
i. really. dislike. petty. guys.
it's so unbecoming.
BE A MAN!