our God is FAITHFUL.

i think i've learnt quite a few lessons the past two weeks about the frailty of man and big huuuuge flashing reminders that He is all that i need, and that my sufficiency, always, comes from Him alone.

You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful

haha this is part of a song on one of bethany dillon's cds heh i was in a cd shop the other day and her album caught my eye cos 1. her name is bethany 2. shes pretty haha but anw yea i havent heard any of her songs yet, but i think the thought from this song is so very precious and wonderful ;)

haha i was informed on tuesday that im part of the chairing team for sat (which is tmr!) haha and i had PILES AND PILES of work to clear so i did ot on wed and chionged down after heh thank goodness for cabs. i think im becoming lazier and lazier i keep thinking of cabbing but AH lets just pray i pass my driving the first time then i can have fun with the car haha wheeee! but anw we have such CHEESEY ideas for chairing we just sat there and laughed at lame jokes half the time heh. but though i was on the brink of throwing away my dignity and falling asleep on the street on the way home, i am nothing short of very thankful to be given the opportunity to serve in this way. its a struggle sometimes, but as i read in psalm84 this week,

"blessed are those who dwell in Your house, they will still be praising You. blessed is the man whose strength is in You, whose heart is set on the pilgrimage."

my heart is set on You- no other love will do!

i believe in the power of prayer, set your sights on things above. and love, like He loved you. (:

haha i am simply amazed at the way the Lord teaches me lessons. hard lessons to learn nonetheless, but good lessons. (: there are so many times when i choose relaxing or having fun over diligently studying His Word and i do need many MANY knocks to be reminded that all i need to get through life is right in front of me, and many times i choose to turn away. remember, im human and humans forget- so remind me, remind me dear Lord

haha the make-up during the easter concert was a very trying time for me. haha elena and her little friend came up to ask me "are you a CAT?" and i was like "im not a cat!!!!" haha but they were so cute they kept smiling at me whilst i was singing but t leelee is convinced i have a little "pest" tailing me cos she keeps tapping me on the shoulder and going "MEOWWW" haha but i really think its funny so AH WELL pastor says no complaining just find joy and be thankful!

i've been reading acts and the psalms, and haha i realised the Bible has pretty exciting stories! heh like how paul got "shipwrecked" and how he said in acts27:31 "paul said to the centurion and the soldiers, 'unless these men stay in the ship, you cannot be saved.'" haha i think it sounds like some cool fantasy story but hey our God is great! and very good ;)

but what stood out to me the most from acts was acts21:13, paul's response after the prophet agabus prophesised that paul would suffer and be delivered into the hands of the gentiles if he should go to jerusalem. with all his followers pleading with him not to go he said "what do you mean by weeping and breaking my heart? for i am ready not only to be bound, but also to die at Jerusalem for the name of the Lord Jesus."

when i read that i just thought, WOW. what great faith. founded on the chief cornerstone, the foundation that cannot be shaken, Christ. and i WANT to have that great faith. pastor mitch said i have to stop telling myself im too weak and i cant do it- i have to trust that HE can do it, and He WILL. if i do my part, and let Him.

here's my heart, o take and seal it, seal it for Thy courts above. (:

seeking to find so much more joy when i face piles of work in the office everyday. half the people are ditching us!! which makes us dead. ot every other day. but anw yea im still trying, still seeking. pray so much for great strength to survive the next 44 days haha and yea! we're gonna get through this maan ;)

Some people hear my words and think I'm wise beyond my years.
Others wonder if I am sincere.
Some might think I'm foolish to put my faith in You,
Some might think I'm wise because I do.

As I consider all of this,
All that really matters is

I know, I know who You are
By the way You make the wind blow
And the way You stir my heart.
And I have only made it through so far
'Cause I know, I know who You are.

Some say You are the only Truth, some say You're a fraud.
Some think that I invented you, some call you God.
Some say You were a noble man, very kind and good.
Some think You were a prophet, just misunderstood.

But I'm content to always be
A witness to Your mystery (:

Oh I know, I know who You are
By the way You make the wind blow
And the way You stir my heart.
And I have only made it through so far
'Cause I know, I know who You are.

And even though I've never seen Your face,
I have heard You calling out my name.

Oh I know, I know who You are
By the way You make the wind blow
And the way You stir my heart.
And I have only made it through so far
Cause I know, I know who You are.

I know, I know who You are.

sometimes i find it so hard to put my faith into action, to be what He wants me to be. patience is the one thing that i struggle so hard with all the time. cos it drives me INSANE when people procrastinate or promise to do something and dont do it. but as i consider all of this i know i've promised to be more diligent in my walk, to seek Him so much more than i should countless times and 99% of the time i hardly do it. still very much learning to look within myself and deal with my faults before i get irritated at other people. but regardless, it gives me great comfort knowing that He's right there beside me and nothing, no one can ever take away this little mustard seed of faith in my heart ;) time to start praying for mercy! mercy and grace to learn to love and be more patient (:

for God is my refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble :)

the past week or so has made me realise how greatly blessed i am, far beyond what i could ever have hoped for. results came as a really really nice surprise and i truly do see His hand of grace guiding me and leading me from the time i studied for the a's till the time i took it and the time i got my results (: haha i got manymany verses and songs sent to me on the morning of results and zhihui reminded me to plan my response, (which was what i'd been praying hard about) to give thanks regardless of what lot He gave. and, im glad! haha i went mad during o level results but this time i didnt, and yea after about forty mins after it suddenly struck me that yes i have been blessed but theres so much more beyond just results! yup so i took on a new perspective, and for that i truly am thankful (:

haha then, on sunday when we were practising for the easter concert as i listened to the words of the songs and considered His sacrifice, i was reminded of how blessed in terms of the physical/material, but ALWAYS, so much more richly blessed in spiritual things. even knowing Him is an honour and privilege that i pray may never diminish in significance when i see the other things of the earth that sparkle. and the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace :).

wednesday and thursday was holidaying time! haha i went crazy but always reminding myself of His goodness and i learnt also what it means to pray for others, consider others and give of His love to those around me. during prayer meeting, Pastor brought up the idea of what it means to pray for mercy, to remind ourselves that God is NOT AN ATM MACHINE (haha okay i added that) and we do not claim mercy but it is His grace extended to us. thats a thought that i have to remind myself constantly of as i go through the daily routine of life, remembering that He's given me gifts and He's blessed me with so much i shouldnt be asking for more. instead, i should be asking for grace and mercy for help to use what He's given me to show others His love.

You have built yourself a fine fortress
And you're the only one who holds the key
You've resolved to pilot your own ship
And you decide what all the rules'll be
No more asking for answers
No more cries for help
You've been hurt for the last time
That's what you tell yourself

i don't know much more than this
But i know Someone who does
i was not there in your past
But i know Someone who was
i can't heal what lies within
But i know Someone who can
i know Someone who can

It's a drag living life like this
Believe me, I've been there a thousand times
Spending everyday on the defence
And building walls no one could ever climb
Till somebody showed me my fortress was a cage
He granted me my freedom
Since then i haven't been the same

i don't know much more than this
But i know Someone who does
i was not there in your past
But i know Someone who was
i can't heal what lies within
But i know Someone who can
i know Someone who can

So you can lock me out
Of your life as you've designed it
But i know there's peace and
i'll be on my knees till the day you find it

I know someone, I know someone

i heard this song again when my ipod was on shuffle the other day haha i havent heard ginny and point of grace in ages! haha yea forgotten at one corner of my ipod. i remember the last time i felt a great burden in my heart for two particular people and as i prayed i saw the way He answered prayer and today? lets just say im amazed at the way they are ;) so! God does work miracles, and im waiting to see one today (: waiting, hoping, praying.

YESSSSSSSSSSSSS FAMILY CAMP IS COMING!!!! im going crazyyyy haha with excitement ;) what great joy to learn what it means to really take up His cross and follow Him. i remember Pastor announced this year's theme to us just after last year's family camp and i was utterly amazed haha so yea its finally here im going to enjoy every ounce of it before i come back to tax returns and whatnot. haha but still, to find joy (:

"trust in the Lord and do good. dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness." -psalm37:3

that was my comfort when i began freaking out on monday cos i wasnt entirely sure what i wanted to do and whether i'd be able to get into the course of my choice. but yea i remember- feed on His faithfulness (: