this is a list of all the movies coming soon that i want to watch

1. made of honour (patrick dempsey)
2. Narnia! Prince Caspian.
3. iron man
4. Feast of love (morgan freeman)
5. Definitely, maybe.
6. Over her dead body (eva longoria)
7. Fool's gold (kate hudson and matthew mcconaughey)
8. spiderwick chronicles.

i think i can forget about studying for the next few years.

yesterday, jus called me materialistic.
today, she showed me THIS
hur.
need i say more about how completely unmaterialistic i am in contrast.

yesterday was a good day, i think.
most of it anw.
went to see the pieces from the louvre, and (surprisingly) i enjoyed it veryveryvery much.
haha.
stories about greek mythology always intrigue me.
i like hearing sad, tragic love stories.
hahahah.
but OBVIOUSLY I DONT WANT THAT TO HAPPEN TO ME.
the guide was extremely good.
she was a really greatttt story-teller.
i need to learn to tell stories like she does!

haha. so i came back,
planned to sleep at 11pm,
and ended up talking to cherie till 1am.
pooi man.
ahahahhaa. i hate that she is getting all the pretty 3pound things from zara!!
hahahaha.
but anw, i miss you friend.
lots and lots.

this morning started well.
i managed to resist the temptation to watch the OC during breakfast,
and be diligent and keep to the time i set aside for the Lord's Word.
so yaye victory number one of the day! hahahahah.
and im glad i did.
cos reviewing sunday's morning worship msg really gave me increased insight into Proverbs10:28,
and the other passages like Romans5:1-5 which Pastor referred to.

and right now the day is not going so well because i am staring at my equity assignment question.
and boy, do i need loads of help from the Lord now.
phoey.
pray for me. (:

hey tina; (just_bittersweet@hotmail.com) 4:42
siao la

40:31
i like men

40:45
and i hungry

i'm not gonna write you a love song! 4:42
YOU LIKE MEN!!!

42:13
omg

hey tina; (just_bittersweet@hotmail.com) 4:42
then what

42:24
boys huh

i'm not gonna write you a love song! 4:42
i am going to have a blog series of 'the toot things jus and rie say'

42:32
HAHAHA

42:34
retard

hey tina; (just_bittersweet@hotmail.com) 4:42
eh u shut up

42:48
its plagarism

42:52
i can sue you!

42:53
hahaha

43:02
so weird, sue a lawyer

i'm not gonna write you a love song! 4:45
hahahhaha

45:27
what plagarism!!!

45:29
im quoting you

45:32
there are credits

45:38
plagarism is when you dont quote

hey tina; (just_bittersweet@hotmail.com) 4:45
hai ya

i'm not gonna write you a love song! 4:47
hahahah

47:08
really!

47:09
hahahah

47:11
im quoting you

47:12
be ye glad

hey tina; (just_bittersweet@hotmail.com) 4:47
siao

47:25
for all the wrong reasons

47:36
you shld quote me when i say something smart

47:39
pang sai head

i'm not gonna write you a love song! 4:47
HAHAHAHAHAH

47:50
but..

47:52
thats never!

47:53
heehee

47:54
okay la

47:55
got la

48:02
your rare moments of epiphanies

48:03
hahaha

hey tina; (just_bittersweet@hotmail.com) 4:48
ya

48:54
siao eh how can u say i dont have!

49:11
its like every moment im zapped with insane epiphanies!

i'm not gonna write you a love song! 4:50
HAHAHAHHA

50:36
ya

50:41
insane epiphanies is just insanity

50:45
its not epiphanies

hey tina; (just_bittersweet@hotmail.com) 4:50
-___-

if you wonder why im always mad, TAKE A LOOK AT MY FRIENDS.

you mean well,
but you make this hard on me.

little by little, one step at a time.
He's changing my heart, and renewing my mind.
teaching me how to be patient and kind-
little by little,
one step at a time (:

"so teach us to number our days,
that we may gain a heart of wisdom."

-Psalm 90:12

there are the periods of time when girls find it extremely difficult to control their emotions.
and are not very amiable,
neither are they rational.
haha.
and i only learnt this when my best friend pointed it out to me one day.
but that is no excuse.
that is no excuse, for we still strive to do all the things which He wants us to do.
just forgive us when we get cranky.

on a side-note,
i found this!

i hate it that perishables have to die.

All I needed to know I learned in Kindergarten

Most of what I really need to know
About how to live and what to do and how to be
I learned in kindergarten.
Wisdom was not at the top of the graduate-school mountain,
But there in the sandpile of Sunday School,
These are the things I learned:

Share everything,
Play fair
Don't hit people
Put things back where you found them,
Clean up your own mess.
Don't take things that are not yours,
Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody,
Wash your hands before you eat.
Flush.
Warm Cookies and milk are good for you,
Live a balanced life- learn some and think some
And draw and paint and sing and dance
And play and work every day some.
Take a nap every afternoon,
When you go out into the world,
watch out for traffic,

hold hands, and stick together.
Be aware of wonder.

hey tina;
wha this aftnoon i cried lor,

cherie - uk. 10:38
dont be a ninny

hey tina; 10:39
cos veryvery painful, stingy pain

39:07
you guys very nice lor.

cherie - uk. 10:39
be a man

39:10
haha

hey tina; 10:39
im a woman u mad or what

joy, goodness, life and reciprocity. 10:39
HAHAHAHAHHA

SERIOUSLY. i wonder why my friends are like that.
jus now commands me to say i love her.
so out of the sheer graciousness of my heart "i love you baby pooi."
hahahha

The fruits of righteousness.

1. Joy

2. Goodness

“The merciful man does good for his own soul…” Proverbs 11:17

3. Life

“As righteousness leads to life…” Proverbs 11:19

4. Reciprocity

“…And he who waters will also be watered himself.” Proverbs 11:25

these past few days have left me with many thoughts. and i cannot say thankful i am for friends who point me back to the Lord, and friends who listen to me ramble, and friends who give me new perspective on ruts i find myself in. and i say, the phone is such a useful mechanism. haha.

i just had a really, really random thought.
if youre in a real dilemma,
and someone tells you to take her side over someone else,
she obviously does not care about whatever difficult situation you may be in.
and that is self-centredness redefined.

but anyhow.
i am very happy!!!! matthew is an amazing book.
and i cannot stop gushing about how wonderful the Believer's Bible is. (:

"but seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness
and all these things shall be added unto you."

-Matthew 6:33

let me say again how absolutely amazing the Believer's Bible is. it offers mind-blowing insight into the Word of God.

'Anxiety denotes impoverishment of faith and is alleviated when ambition is directed toward God's kingdom and righteousness. Freedom from worry, which is born of sincere faith in God's overruling providence, marks kingdom citizens.'

on the basis of singleness of devotion (a single treasure v19-21, a single vision v22-23, a single master v 24), the believer enjoys complete confidence in God's providence, which frees him from anxiety.

when i read this passage last night, i asked for the Lord to help me stop worrying about everything and just trust.
simply trust, and simply love Him.
and today, i must say i was put to the test.
ive been worrying about a whole host of things.
if you asked me, i could probably go through the entire alphabet and have one worry for every letter of the alphabet.
but today, i have come to a conclusion about many things.
and i have been encourage to seek first His kingdom,

and believe that He will add all His blessings to me, when the time is right.
not to mention today's morning service msg was THE msg of the century. haha. it was amazing.

"the blessings of the Lord makes one rich
and He adds no sorrow with it."

-Proverbs 10:22

i see many things that i consider the Lord's blessings in my life.
church, law school, friends, family.
and with these blessings there should come no sorrow.
they are complete in themselves.
and sufficient, more than enough for me. (:

i did spring cleaning yesterday.
look how clean my room is!!!



i can actually see some table space for once in my life.



these are the 8plastic bags of things i had to make myself throw away.



and for ONCE in my entire life, i have a study area in my room! woohooo! hahahahah.
my clean room really makes me happy. i hope it stays that way :p

i tell you.
a headache and a queasy stomach do not go well together.

sometimes i wish life could just be simple.
simple things make me happy.
like a msg that says 'i love you'
or a random running-hug (run to you and jump into your arms) from one of the kids in church
or an email of encouragement with a reminder to look to the Lord
or a newborn baby clutching your hand
or watching the stars and seeing MY STARS (the orion belt.)
so sometimes, i wish life could just be about the simple things.

sometimes you know, its really hard to get yourself into the right frame of mind.
thea just wrote an entire blog post about an uncertain future.
and that is exactly what scares me. every minute of every day it scares me.
its not really death that scares me, its what happens if i dont die.
what happens every minute of every day.

and i cant help it that this song keeps popping up in my mind.

all the world is longing, to know security.

especially me.
cos im a worrier. i worry about anything and everything.
all the time.
i like my life planned out,
and it unnerves me when things dont go according to plan.
ive been praying about/ working on this for years, and though its gotten better,
sometimes i still feel unsettled about everything.

and i think pretty much the only thing that keeps me sane is the knowing that God's love never changes.
i liked love actually a lot. there was a lot of pretty, romanticized notions of love.
love that transcends language, coolness factor (see the little boy and girl in the show) and whatnot.
ive not learnt to appreciate the full extent of the Lord's love.
its stability, its constancy, its fullness.
and, i think, its only when you learn to appreciate the Lord's love do you really, truly realise that people are not perfect.
and when you can really, truly, love others with His love
a love that expects nothing in return.

so while i am learning these lessons,
i am learning what it means to pray.
today's PM msg was excellent.

"Lord, what is man that You take knowledge of him?
or the son of man, that You are mindful of him?
Man is like a breath. His days are like a passing shadow." -Psalm 144:3-4

and then there are the good days, when you (yes you, the one that doubts and sighs and doesnt believe) are reminded, that our God hears and answers prayer.

you know how some kids are just so, so, so cute?
you look at them and you know they embody all the innocence God meant us all to have.
you know how some friends are just so, so, so special?
you read what they write to you about their thoughts on the Lord's Word and your heart is uplifted.
you know how some teachers are just so, so, so inspirational?
they teach you from God's Word and you see the amazing truths of the Lord's Word unfolding right before your eyes.
you know how some pastors are just so, so, so powerful?
you hear them preach the Lord's Word and you know, that is the truth.
you know how some churches are so, so, so warm?
you walk around and you know God's love is real.
you know how God is just so, so, so wonderful?

i know how God is just so, so, so wonderful.

today, ryan tried to tell me something when his mouth was full, but i couldnt understand a thing he was saying.
after he finished chewing,
i still cldnt understand a thing.
i heard the words marker and whiteboard and mama. and he repeated himself 3 times so i just pretended i understood what he said and went "ohhhhhhhh."
ive pretty much mastered leon-language, bethany-language, justin-language and lorraine language.
but ryan..


i need to understand.
haha.
today was a funny day.
but a good day, nonetheless. (:

some days are just not yours.

so anw, the past few weeks have left me with much to think about.
since 2008 started, everythings just been a whirlwind of activities which hasnt left me with much room to breathe.
once the new year began i was packed and ready to fly to hanoi, trek up and down mountains, kayak and what not.
when i got back i was hurled into the first day of school, in the most rude and abrupt fashion i must say when i realised i forgot to re-set my phone timing to singapore time and was half an hour late for my first equity seminar.
6 weeks 'probation' in resonance.
realising that all my tutorials are twice as long as they used to be.
spending 20hours preparing for one public law seminar.
reading through all the materials at crazy speed.
and a myriad of other things.

and at the end of it all, everything is changing around me and my world is spinning half the time.
but we re-sung a song at youth choir today that reminded me. really, reminded me-

all the world is longing,
to know security.
all the world is listening,
trying to hear words they can believe.

but there is only One voice
calling us by name
One truth we can hold onto;
forever, He remains the same.

oh, i want you to know
that God's love never changes
His love never fails.
when the world is shaken,
we can put our faith in knowing that His love will never change.

oh, i want you to see,
that God's love never changes.

following the Lord is no easy task, thats why its called the narrow way.
and sometimes i think like a spoilt child.
THAT, is what i want. why cant i have it. i want it, NOW.
but then i remember that i am to love Him above everything. every item, every activity, every person, every -everything.
this, is why they call it the narrow way.
Him above every- everything.