walking on Sonshine!

little by little one step at a time, He's changing my heart and renewing my mind (: teaching me how to be patient and kind little by little one step at a time! (:

Thursday, November 30, 2006

haha i feel like posting photos.

look at my pretty bedroom slippers!! haha i just found them. like behind all my textbooks and bags.


this is an example of val's OCD behavior.


and this is the way he saves his prawns for last.


this is man trying to act chio in my dream house!


PRISON BREAK.


ben trying to act handsome


teaparty!!


and GLORI THE TOOT. (p.s: thank you for being my lunch-bringer ;)


i am still unable to see the overview of torts, BUT. i am not panicking. cos i know that whatever i do, i do to the praise of His glory and as i keep working, He will keep me and watch over me in His own way. (:

AND YES CONFERENCE COMETH!! and Christmas kids programme!!!!!!!! lovelove (:

click on the old link again, the page is refreshed (:

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Landscape - Roy Lessin

Your life's like a landscape and God has the brush.
The work is in progress, He's not in a rush.
Each stroke has a purpose, nothing's by chance.
To see all His wisdom takes more than a glance.

Notice the sunbeams that shine on the dew --
Even the clouds can't keep them from view.
Look at the pathway that turns at the hill --
Its course will reveal what's next in His will.

The stream that's flowing with water so blue
Is bringing down blessings meant just for you.
The trees that are planted close to the stream
Will bring forth more fruit than you've ever seen.

The bird in the nest with mouth opened wide
Is just a reminder that God will provide.
Now look at the sheep in the meadow that's near
And notice the Shepherd that keeps them from fear.

He's brought them to pastures which give forth the best,
That cool and refresh, and keep them in rest.
The eagle above, that soars o'er the gale
Is God's way of saying, "My strength will not fail."

That part of the painting which now seems unclear
Will take on new meaning with each passing year.
So trust God to work in His own perfect way
And rejoice in the beauty He's painting today.

this is a veryveryveryveryveryvery beautiful poem. (: and jones is no longer my best friend. i am sick of him.
shucks i need to find a new method of studying torts. help

Monday, November 27, 2006

i just randomly thought back on the ac choir tour 2005! (:

and i vaguely remember sitting on the bus through a veryverylong journey to prague. and i remember talking to ernest about alot of nonsense on the bus. [hahahah when i start reminiscing, it means im crazy and i need a break from studying.] haha and i was just thinking about how the Lord teaches me different lessons through different people. before that day i dont think i spoke much to ernest but i learnt some lessons from what we talked about that day. just like how, now im learning different lessons of life through the different friends ive made during the various seasons of my life. [what, seasons! i am not old. i am still in summer (:]

anw, just a random thought. and i washed my hands for 5mins just now cos i wanted them to smell nice. haha. weibo thought i had OCD cos i kept washing my hands the last time we went to sentosa. I DO NOT HAVE OCD. there are just some days when your hands get sticky easily. and when they do, I WASH THEM. so there. hahahah I AM MAD

i love jones, by the way.

hahaha during lunch today, nich quoted from the Bible "seek ye first the Kingdom of God..and all these things shall be added unto you."

AMEN! hahah. (: good thought for today. back to my new found boyfriend, michael a jones, lest he feel neglected.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

i did something for someone today.
and i felt warm and fuzzy inside (:

it really is more blessed to give than to receive. (:

"even so the tongue is a little member and boasts great things. see how great a forest a little fire kindles!
and the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity. the tongue is so set among our members that it defiles the whole body and sets on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire by hell." -james3:5-6

its amazing how the Lord's Word is so all-encompassing. for EVERY SEASON of your life (:
the tongue really is the most malicious thing in our body, and nothing stops it.
ive learnt to think twice about the things i say, obviously some people havent.
but its okay i guess. haha the Lord is above all these things.
haha little ruth came up to me today and proclaimed to me the fact that she bought me a Christmas present. so sweet! it really changed my day from the horrific morning and what i found out today.
Pastor mitch preached from jeremiah38, about how ebed-melech helped jeremiah the prophet.
and he said 'it is more blessed to give than to receive.'
and its true. to find the joy in giving.
auntie asked us what lesson we learnt through the whole year during sunday school this morning.
and i said i learnt how not to rely on people and to trust the Lord, really trust Him. above anything and everything believing that He has a good plan through whatever He brings me through.
the same lesson ive been learning each year, every year.
and i will keep learning it till i learn it well.
till i can say that all things really are rubbish when i look to the Cross of my Savior.

Christmas cometh! but first, sls.

teach me. (:

Saturday, November 25, 2006

I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT CONFERENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Home - Michael Buble

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home


this is a very sad song :'( i miss ypg. stupid sls. -stamps foot.

Friday, November 24, 2006

i think these two verses sum up my life-

"before i was afflicted, i went astray,
but now i keep Your Word."

"it is good for me that i have been afflicted,
that i may learn Your statutes."

psalm119:67,71

my life is like this sine wave, and my faith life is the inverse sine wave or something. haha i dont understand myself. haha go figure. if you understand what i mean, you understand me. (:

Thursday, November 23, 2006



cheesey grin



doing what he does best!

it was didi's birthday today!
haha i actually ASKED him to eat today. so sweet of me right. not something i normally do. hahahaha
but anw, happy birthday ____! i will not put down his nickname/term of endearment, lest he kill me. hahahah
I LOVE YOU ____! (:

haha i have 9 songs on my playlist now:

1. walk by faith - jeremy camp
2. right here - jeremy camp
3. let there be light - bethany combined choir! (:
4. new song in my heart - emu music
5. kingdom song - emu music
6. far away - nickelback
7. here with us - evergreens
8. home - michael buble
9. seasons of love - cast of rent

can you believe it the entire day yesterday i listened to these 9 songs. and alot of repeats of far away. haha. and i think today is gonna be the same too. i have to take a break every hour to read my Bible so i dont freak out and faint. haha val insists that everyone loses concentration after 45mins. BUT I DONT! im not supposed to man. during a's i can study four hours straight without doing anything. garh. but nvm. reading the Lord's Word is good (: im at matthew chapter 22 now. and i think looking at His love as He came down to seek and serve just reminds me that our God truly is an awesome God. and no matter what crap i may be going through, He's gonna watch over me and bring me through.

lift my fallen face and help me to stand,
flood me with the grace that comes from Your hand,
cleanse me from my sin, Lord forgive me again-
that i might be Yours alone.


let these broken bones, rise up and rejoice,
bring this captive home and lift up my voice
help my spirit sing, now to Jesus my King-
for He has forgiven me.
(:

it is 11:11am on a thursday morning. i have to make this day productive!

Lord, forgive me again. that i might be Yours, alone.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

"In ancient times there existed in the country of Serendippo, in the Far East, a great and powerful king by the name of Giaffer. He had three sons who were very dear to him. And being a good father and very concerned about their education, he decided that he had to leave them endowed not only with great power, but also with all kinds of virtues of which princes are particularly in need.”

So begins the fascinating story of The Three Princes of Serendip. In order to provide the best tutors for his sons, the king travels throughout the island until he finds a number of scholars, each specialized in a different field, “And to them he entrusted the training of his sons, with the understanding that the best they could do for him was to teach them in such a way that they could be immediately recognized as his very own.”

As the three princes are endowed with great intelligence, they soon become highly trained in the arts and sciences. However, when the tutors inform the king of his sons’ achievements, he is sceptical. So he summons his eldest son and announces that he wishes to retire to a monastery and that his son should succeed him as ruler. The eldest son politely refuses, insisting that his father is wiser and should reign until his death. The two younger sons also refuse when commanded in a similar manner.

Although the king is astonished by the wisdom displayed by his sons, he decides to send them on a prolonged journey so that they can acquire empirical experience. He summons his sons and, giving the impression of being angry and disappointed because they have all disobeyed him, banishes them from Serendip. “Thus they started their peregrination and moved out of his kingdom until they reached the kingdom of a great and powerful emperor, whose name was Beramo.”

Misfortune befalls the princes when a camel driver stops them on the road and asks them if they have seen one of his camels. Although they have not, they have noticed signs that suggest a camel has passed along the road. Ever ready to dazzle with their wit and sagacity, the princes mystify the camel driver by asking him if the lost camel is blind in one eye, missing a tooth and lame. The camel driver, impressed by the accuracy of the description, immediately hurries off in pursuit of the animal.

After a fruitless search, and feeling deceived, he returns to the princes, who reassure him by supplying further information. The camel, they say, carried a load of butter on one side and honey on the other, and was ridden by a pregnant woman. Concluding that the princes have stolen the camel, the driver has them imprisoned. It is only after the driver’s neighbour finds the camel that they are released.

The princes are brought before Emperor Beramo, who asks them how they could give such an accurate description of a camel they had never seen. It is clear from the princes’ reply that they had brilliantly interpreted the scant evidence observed along the road.

As the grass had been eaten on one side of the road where it was less verdant, the princes deduced that the camel was blind to the other side. Because there were lumps of chewed grass on the road the size of a camel’s tooth, presumably they had fallen through the gap left by a missing tooth. The tracks showed the prints of only three feet, the fourth being dragged, indicating that the animal was lame. That butter was carried on one side of the camel and honey on the other was clear because ants had been attracted to melted butter on one side of the road and flies to spilled honey on the other.

The deduction regarding the pregnant rider is more complicated than the rest and is somewhat lewd, so I shall let the princes tell it themselves: “I guessed that the camel must have carried a woman,” said the second brother, “because I had noticed that near the tracks where the animal had knelt down the imprint of a foot was visible. Because some urine was near by, I wet my fingers (in it) and as a reaction to its odour I felt a sort of carnal concupiscence, which convinced me that the imprint was of a woman’s foot.”

“I guessed that the same woman must have been pregnant,” said the third, “because I had noticed nearby handprints which were indicative that the woman, being pregnant, had helped herself up with her hands while urinating.”

mperor Beramo is so astounded by the princes' sagacity in the matter of the missing camel that he invites them to be his guests. He is soon convinced that they are blessed with the powers of prophecy when they divine that one of his counsellors is planning to poison him. Their remarkable abilities prompt him to tell them a strange story. He relates how there was once a Mirror of Justice in his realm that revealed the guilty, so ensuring peace and tranquility. However, the mirror was stolen and taken to another land, where it came into the possession of a Virgin Queen. Beramo urges the princes to retrieve the mirror so that justice can be restored.

Their task is complicated by a giant upright hand that has appeared upon the sea near the queen's capital and is terrorizing the inhabitants. The decision is made to bring the mirror to the shore and orient it towards the hand. As a result, the hand starts to clutch at animals rather than humans. Understandably, the queen is reluctant to part with the mirror, as it now prevents any further human loss. The daunting challenge for the princes is to subdue the hand once and for all.

The princes arrive at the queen's capital and proceed to the beach to confront the hand. The eldest realizes that it is a symbol illustrating that if five men unite for a single purpose, they can conquer the world. So he holds up his hand with only the second and third fingers erect, demonstrating that it is an error to believe that five united men are necessary, when only two would suffice. The giant hand disappears forever beneath the sea and the queen gracefully surrenders the mirror.

When the princes return the Mirror of Justice to Beramo, they learn of the catastrophe that has befallen the emperor in their absence. Beramo has fallen in love with a beautiful slave girl called Diliramma, who one day questioned his honour in public. In a fit of rage, he had her bound and abandoned in a forest. The next day, Beramo was filled with remorse and ordered a search for his paramour. No trace of her was found, leaving Beramo ill with sorrow.

Witnessing the emperor's suffering, the princes advise him to build seven beautiful palaces and to reside in each one for a week. In addition, the best storyteller in each of the seven most important cities of the empire is to be brought into his royal presence to recount a marvellous story.

Whoever compiled the stories that are interwoven in The Three Princes of Serendip was informed about Persian as well as Indian sources. Thus, in the tradition of Persian narrative, the overarching story of the princes' adventures provides a framework for relating seven novellas at this juncture. This format appears to be patterned after the Persian poem, The Seven Beauties, by Nizami. The novellas (the seven stories told to Beramo by the seven storytellers) have similar themes: love and hate, innocence and wickedness, mistaken identities, multiple coincidences and magic powers. Unfortunately, they are too long to be synopsized here.

Over the weeks, in his various palaces, Beramo listens with appreciation to six of the stories, his health steadily improving. While listening to the seventh story, about a ruler who spurns his lover, Beramo suddenly realizes that it concerns Diliramma and himself. On being questioned, the storyteller reveals that he knows Diliramma and that he is searching for her lord to tell him that she still loves him despite his act of cruelty. Overjoyed, Beramo sends for Diliramma and they are reunited.

Beramo asks the three princes how they conceived such an effective remedy. They tell him they recommended seven different palaces to be built so that variety might cure the root of his illness, insomnia. As no trace of Diliramma had been found in the forest, they refused to believe that wild animals had eaten her. Therefore they suggested that storytellers be summoned from afar in case news of her might be received. As Diliramma had been discovered in the forest by a travelling merchant, who took her far away, their strategy turned out to be precisely correct.

The princes return to Serendip, and the story ends with the three wise sons of King Giaffer becoming three wise rulers. Upon Giaffer's death, the eldest son succeeds his father as King of Serendip. The middle son returns to the land of the Virgin Queen, marries her and becomes king. Emperor Beramo, who has a daughter, sends for the youngest son and offers her in marriage. Soon after the wedding, Beramo dies, and his son-in-law becomes lord of his empire.

part of why the word 'serendipity' came about. haha this story is interesting, albeit a little strange what with all the camel's urine and all. but well. haha

i am not concentrating very well. garhhhhhh i am sleepy!

i was talking to someone today/yesterday and im glad that i was able to encourage with what i had. i remember what pastor once said- that suffering gives you access to more people. and i think that really is true.

haha in kennedy's words, things are okay.

but im learning, im trying.

i read the parable of the workers in the vineyard today: [Matthew20]

1 "For the kingdom of heaven is like a landowner who went out early in the morning to hire laborers for his vineyard.
2 Now when he had agreed with the laborers for a denarius a day, he sent them into his vineyard.
3 And he went out about the third hour and saw others standing idle in the marketplace,
4 and said to them, 'You also go into the vineyard, and whatever is right I will give you.' So they went.
5 Again he went out about the sixth and the ninth hour, and did likewise.
6 And about the eleventh hour he went out and found others standing idle,[a] and said to them, 'Why have you been standing here idle all day?'
7 They said to him, 'Because no one hired us.' He said to them, 'You also go into the vineyard, and whatever is right you will receive.'[b]
8 "So when evening had come, the owner of the vineyard said to his steward, 'Call the laborers and give them their wages, beginning with the last to the first.'
9 And when those came who were hired about the eleventh hour, they each received a denarius.
10 But when the first came, they supposed that they would receive more; and they likewise received each a denarius.
11 And when they had received it, they complained against the landowner,
12 saying, 'These last men have worked only one hour, and you made them equal to us who have borne the burden and the heat of the day.'
13 But he answered one of them and said, 'Friend, I am doing you no wrong. Did you not agree with me for a denarius?
14 Take what is yours and go your way. I wish to give to this last man the same as to you.
15 Is it not lawful for me to do what I wish with my own things? Or is your eye evil because I am good?'
16 So the last will be first, and the first last. For many are called, but few chosen."[c]

its amazing how Jesus fitted all these amazing and fascinating concepts into such a simple story. the jews are the workers who started working in the morning, and the gentiles those that came nearer the end of the day. and i think this parable just reminds me of how blessed i am when i look to the Lord and all that He's given me. many are called, but few chosen. its always in the down-er periods of my life that i discover the Lord so much more. and its also in the down-er periods of my life i realise that although i may not feel like it, i know and realise that He's all i need, when He's all i have left.

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Far away - nickelback

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

One my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand


today was not a very good studying day. i just spent the last 47mins rambling to weibo while he was trying to eat gross army food, listen to me and -try- to give me advice all at the same time. this is a nice song. haha from my birthday present that i havent listened to yet. i think time really is the test of friendship and im thankful for what the Lord has provided me with. He teaches me lessons in ways i wish He wouldnt. the hard way, cos i dont learn well the soft way. i have a tendency to take things for granted and i think He gets my attention by putting me through certain things in life. and though i may not like it, im thankful. cos it reminds me that He should be the centre around which all my world revolves and nothing should stand in the way. (:

i spent some time reading the gospel of matthew today, and it really is an amazing book. reading it from the prespective of discovering new aspects of the Kingdom of Heaven is a refreshing change. i remember reading the gospels to prepare my heart for Christmas last year. and this year, when i read it again, it takes on a whole new meaning. and im beginning [and continuing, i hope] to discover what pastor means when he says the Lord's Word is unexhaustible. neverending, and it's riches are boundless. one parable about the Kingdom of Heaven i reallyreally like-

"Another parable He spoke to them: 'the Kingdom of Heaven is like leaven, which a woman took and hid in three measures of meal till it was all leavened." -Matthew13:33

this parable is used to describe the INVISIBLE WORK of the Kingdom of Heaven. and i thought that was a very mind-blowing thought. the invisible work. happening, right here, right now. and all im aware of are my exams coming up this week. right here, right now. it helps put things into perspective. (:

Right here - jeremy camp

All the world is Watching
All the world does care
Even when the world weighs on my shoulder now,
These feelings I can bare
Because I know,
That you're here,

Everywhere I go,
I know You're not far away,
You're right here
You're right here

All these thoughts I've wasted,
All these thoughts I fear,
Even when these thoughts have faded,
I still know that you're here,
So I can rest my hope in you

Everywhere I go,
I know You're not far away,
You're right here
You're right here

Many of times that I have felt alone,
Many of times that I have the world was crashing down upon me,
You always stood here by my side,
You were always there

Everywhere I go,
I know You're not far away,
You're right here
You're right here

and i will walk by faith. (:





just a reminder of sweetness, innocence and love. [and to make jon jealous. haha]

Monday, November 20, 2006

here with us.

its still a mystery to me,
that the hands of God could be so small.
how tiny fingers reaching in the night,
were the very hands that measured the sky.

hallelujah,
hallelujah,
Heaven's love reaching down, to save the world.
hallelujah,
hallelujah,
Son of God, Servant King, here with us-
You're here with us.

its still a mystery to me,
how His infant eyes have seen the dawn of time.
how His ears have heard an angel's symphony

hallelujah,
hallelujah,
Heaven's love reaching down, to save the world.
hallelujah,
hallelujah,
Son of God, Servant King, here with us-
You're here with us.

Jesus the Christ,
born in Bethlehem
a baby born to save,
to save the souls of men.

hallelujah,
hallelujah,
Heaven's love reaching down, to save the world.
hallelujah,
hallelujah,
Son of God, Servant King, here with us-
You're here with us.

here with us.here with us.here with us.

read the lyrics- it reminds you of what we're here for. haha alec just sent me a song called 'walk by faith' by jeremy camp. its a beautiful song, and im reminded, to do that although i cannot see. though i cannot see more than a step in front of me.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you
My bones ache, my skin feels cold
And I'm getting so tired and so old

The anger swells in my guts
And I won't feel these slices and cuts
I want so much to open your eyes
Cos I need you to look into mine

Tell me that you'll open your eyes

Get up, get out, get away from these liars
Cos they don't get your soul or your fire
Take my hand, knot your fingers through mine
And we'll walk from this dark room for the last time

Every minute from this minute now
We can do what we like anywhere
I want so much to open your eyes
Cos I need you to look into mine

Tell me that you'll open your eyes

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you


haha the emo song of the day. and of course the quote i need to post: underneath the laughing and giggling, screaming and squealing, there is meaning. (:

and back to my reflections on giving. i am so blessed. i need to learn to give back, more. (:

this morning, when i was running, i ran past an old man dressed in a pink and blue striped shirt and khaki shorts. he was collecting old cardboard boxes and aluminium cans from the rubbish dump. and i was reminded of what it means to give.

i was especially touched last sunday when Pastor talked about how the church in india gave money to the myanmar orphanage. they hardly had enough for themselves, and yet they gave. i remember how kenneth once told me that 10% of what you have is what is DUE to God. whether you like it or not, you'd better give it. anything else you give, over and above that 10% is a reflection of how much you choose to give up for Him, not cos you have to, but cos you love Him.

i am blessed, i know it. even though i feel like im drowning in the midst of torts, contracts and sls. i am blessed. even though i may not feel like it all the time. i have a mom who sits around at night watching me study, cooks food for me at 12midnight cos im hungry, fetches me when she can. i have a dad who sat through the o and a levels with me, for hours on end trying to explain to me why what the direction of the centripetal force of a ball swinging in a vertical circle is. i have a brother who helps me -ahem- photocopy stuff and watches all the bimbotic shows with me cos i make him. and i have friends. i have friends enough to get me through life, friends who remind me that the Lord is watching over me, each and everyday of my life.

ive been given so much, nows my turn to give back. i remember Pastor's jokes about how the 50-cent coins and the 1-dollar coins find their way into the offering bag so often, whereas the 10-dollar notes and 50-dollar notes havent seen what a church looks like. that is my rebuke. learning to give with a cheerful heart. for us girls. do you ever wonder why you dont even bat an eyelid when you buy a top that costs 30-dollars. yet, when the offering bag passes you by you think twice before you put that 10-dollar note in? for the boys, think of your own analogy haha but you get the drift. i remember giving 10-dollars to the auntie that sits outside the washroom in far east, collecting 10-cent coins for entry into the washroom. and i cant forget her smile when she said thank you. and in a way, when we give to people, its also a way of giving back to the Lord.

"and the King will answer and say to them, 'assuredly in as much as you did it to one of the least of My brethren, you did it to Me.'" -Matthew25:40

i think many people have a problem with giving away their money. and though i dont face that dilemma very often, i find it hard to give more of my time to the Lord. money, time, its all giving. all you have is borrowed, give it back.

"so let each one give as he purposes in his heart, not grudgingly or of necessity; but God loves a cheerful giver." -2corinthians9:7 (:

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

i just know my contracts tutor thinks im stupid.

but well.

hha the Lord is my hope and strength! i will endeavour to continue reading matthew

and i will endeavour to study contracts and understand sls!!!!! NO SLEEPING. no more 9 hours of sleep a day. no more no more.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

OH my goodness this is the ultimate photo of my favorite boy on earth.



im going to stop talking now or else im gonna ramble on and on all night.

Monday, November 13, 2006

JOY! binder is overrrrrrrrrrrr ;) but i am tired. haha i tried to log into blogger using my e-mail address. -_- i watched four episodes of prison break today. i think i am dead for sls. and contracts. i need to salvage myself for torts! speaking of which. vicarious liability is one thin topic to study. i see no depth in it.

anw, i just finished pastor's homework for us - to do a short writeup on what stood out to us with regards to the Kingdom of Heaven.

Two aspects stood out to me about the Kingdom of Heaven from the gospel of Matthew.

The first is what I’ve mentioned before, that we have a mission, an URGENT mission to tell others about the Kingdom of Heaven. To point the way with our lives and beckon them into the Kingdom the way Jesus did during His earthly ministry. (Matthew4:17,23)

17 ‘From that time, Jesus began to preach and to say “Repent for the Kingdom of Heaven is at hand.”’

23 “and Jesus went about all Galilee, teaching in their synagogues, preaching the gospel of the kingdom…”

The second is about how precious the Kingdom of Heaven is. Like how Jesus gave up all the kingdoms of the world when satan offered them to Him, to stay true and faithful to His mission, He showed us the perfect example of what it means to be able to understand just how precious entrance into this Kingdom is. (Matthew4:8-10). Just like how Jesus gave up the riches before Him for the things that are eternal, likewise I am challenged to further discover a deep understanding of the priceless nature of the Kingdom of Heaven. (:

i think ive got much to learn about the Kingdom of Heaven. and i cant wait to discover! youth conferenceeeeeeee! yes. but for now, sleep beckons. and torts tutorial tmrw, i am determined to do well for torts. try not to die for sls and contracts. and yes He will be my strength. set my mind on things eternal. (:

Sunday, November 12, 2006

my blood pressure is up twenty-fold. my research memo was just submitted, 3 minutes before the deadline. i do not like last minute work. i do not like arguing with people. i do not like irresponsible people. i do not like it when people patronize me like im some four-year old kid that needs to be pacified. i do not like it when people dont take what i say seriously. it is now 12.01 a.m. my heart-rate is just beginning to slow down, i have pepped talk myself enough times to ensure that i dont flip tmr. i have prayed and reviewed enough Bible verses to know that the Lord is walking with me through this period of time when i feel like all i have is Him. when i feel my blood pressure soaring, i will remember. counted worthy. suffering builds your faith. i will let this build my faith.

'c'mon rach! last stretch!' as per huggles at 22:30:37.

and let us run with perseverance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus the Author and Finisher of our faith. hupomone. (:

Saturday, November 11, 2006

im learning to breathe, im learning to crawl. im finding that You, and You alone can break my fall.

i am very sleepy. it is 1.43 a.m. and i still have all the stuff to finish for the research binder hanging over my head. i am worrying myself to death over our research memo which is not even half done. i have been a kanchiong spider for the past few days trying to be patient while waiting for the first draft. and all in all the word patience is still not yet a part of my vocabulary.

i now spend my entire life in the C J Koh Law Library, and my best friends are the Current Law Case Citators, my macbook, and the Halsburys of Singapore, UK and Australia. oh, and the photocopying machine of course.

ordinarily, i would say im a sad law student. but i am not. a frazzled law student, yes. a worrying law student, yes. a stressed law student, yes. but not a sad law student. haha pastor reminded us today of what it means to have joy in being part of the Kingdom of Heaven. yes, great joy!! (:

and so even if binder takes my life, yes there is yet hope. for beyond the shelves of the C J Koh Law Library lies hope. hope that will bring me through next week's torts and contracts tutorial, hope that will bring me where He wants me to be. hope! (:

Thursday, November 09, 2006

huggles koh wants the one that says '100% HUGGABLE" for his birthday. -_-

he even found me a carebear website to get shirts from -_-

HUGGLES IS MAD.

as are all of us. gosh. the research binder is driving me almost insane. i spent the entire day fretting over case summaries and what to include in oour binder and noting up and AHHHH. all these irresponsible people that take the case citators and leave them on your desk whilst youre doing other things. can you PLEASE be a little more considerate, spare a thought for everyone else whos running round the library trying to find the book when you arent even using it. i spent half the day yelling [yes yelling.] myself hoarse in the library trying to find the case citators.

before i left for school today, i memorised the first four verses of the memory passage for this month.

"and we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. for whom He foreknew, these He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren. for whom He predestined, these He also called. whom He called, these He also justified. and whom He justified, these He also glorified.

what then shall we say to all these things? if God is for us, who shall be against us?"

-romans8:28-31

but when i went to school and started doing my binder, i realised that the word 'patience' is not yet part of my vocabulary.
today's a lesson.
a big one.
how stressed up i can get when things start piling up and people are getting tense and work isnt completed and all.
i remember how zou li made me cry during pw!!!
haha yes i remember.
and if things dont start moving along real quick i just might do that again.

hahahaha okay i wont. i will remember. the joy of the Lord is my strength. my strength. that will guard the floodgates of my eyes so they wont burst open THE NEXT TIME SOMEONE KOPES THE CASE CITATORS.

this is my thought for the day. that i hope to bring into tomorrow!

love has a heartbeat, and grace has a face. (:
if God is for us, who can be against us?

Monday, November 06, 2006

this retarded albert gerard liu chua comes up with the most retarded ideas when it is 3am at night.

anw have a look at the cool exam questions he's doing!

1. DISCUSS THE SIGNIFICANCE OF THE PARABLE OF THE PRODIGAL SON ( LUKE 15. 11-32). IN WHAT WAYS DOES THIS PARABLE SUPPORT OR MODIFY OTHER TEACHINGS OF JESUS IN THE GOSPEL ACCORDING TO LUKE?
2. DISCUSS THE RELEVANCE OF BENJAMIN.

haha i have his answer for the first question but i wont post it just in case i get killed. haha EXTREMELY critical thinking. but i guess it really is hard when you 'are in a room full of 80 people criticising God and you just dont know how to show your faith to them.'

likewise.

and on a completely irrelevant note,



MY CURRENT MOST FAVORITE BOY ON THE PLANET. besides my dad, my brother and ethan, of course.

Sunday, November 05, 2006

it's hard to say it, time to say it-
goodbye, goodbye.


i was feeling really tired and sick of binder this morning, but i have to say i was encouraged by EVERY MESSAGE i heard in church today. (:

haha sunday school by sp-chris was from the book of joshua 'be strong and of good courage!' which i thought was very apt especially in the light of the research binder. haha

auntie then talked about philippians 1:27 again about standing fast and looking on the Christ-side rather than just the bright side. (:

and we sang all my favorite hymns today! be Thou my vision, take my life and let it be (:

im just reminded to look towards the things eternal, and stop looking at the here and now. have had alot of thoughts about many things over the past week or so, and i think it just all boils down to trusting. looking to Him and believing that He will be faithful and provide for everything that we need. (:

haha AND as i was reading ecclesiastes last night, i realised the writer can be a very good lawyer!!!!!! hahaha im sorry only law students will understand this. haha cos the writer of ecclesiastes FOLLOWS CRuPAC FORMAT!!! how cool RIGHT. hahahaha i realised it yesterday!!

its starts with a conclusion 'vanity of vanities, all is vanity', then it goes on to rule proof 'one generation passes away and another comes, but the earth abides forever' and etcetcetc then it goes to rule application! 'Then I looked on all the works that my hands had wrought, and on the labour that I had laboured to do: and, behold, all was vanity and vexation of spirit, and there was no profit under the sun.' and finally the conclusion! 'the conclusion of the matter is "to fear God and keep His commandments" hahahah SO COOL rightssssss ;) heee okay i should shut up now.

research binder! all the wayyyy ;)

take my moments and my days, let them flow in ceaseless praise.

Friday, November 03, 2006

i couldnt stop laughing!

cherie: thank you for being the friend that knows all my idosycracies (dunno how to spell!)

haha. thank you for knowing all of mine too hugs (:

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

binder is driving me MAD. madmadmad.

haha but then im happy. i just took a nice walk around school after the rain in a jacket. haha it feels niceeee. haha i should create my own prayer walks. everything is just so niceeee after the rain. sunshine after the rain! (:

and im just reminded that the Lord is right beside me. in anything and everything i do. through the tough times and the good times His presence gives a peace i cannot understand. haha and so, even though binder is still driving me madmadmad -

blessed assurance, Jesus is mine. (: