wow the week's been really long and trying but looking back i think hey it wasnt that bad haha and im just thankful for His hand of grace and protection that was upon me throughout the week else i think i'd probably have flopped over and died of fatigue on day one :S

was reminded of a very important truth today from pastor's morning message on 2tim4 about spreading the gospel. and i realise that while i've been praying and scraping through each day and surviving, i havent really opened my eyes to those around me like i used to. when did i stop asking for Your wisdom, as if Your Words were meant for someone else. i've been so caught up with self, me me me, how I can finish this math tutorial, how I am gonna squeeze quiet time school choir tuition and sleep into 24hours, how I am gonna try and make myself stay awake, how the Lord can help ME and give ME strength. thats not wrong but while i've been struggling to keep myself afloat i've considered others less and less. [well of course i realise that if i cant keep myself afloat i cant very well try and save others either.] but the whole point is, i just want to learn to pray, with others in mind, for others, so much more. to remember that when i am strong in Him, i am strong not only for myself, but to be strong for those around me to pick them up when they fall and depend on others to do the same for me.

a very apt song we sang today- "people need the Lord, at the end of broken dreams, He's the OPEN door." and the prelude too make me a servant, humble and meek. Lord, help me lift up those who are weak. and may the prayer of my heart always be- make me a servant, make me a servant, make me a servant, today. my prayer for this week is just to learn to see others through His eyes and do the work which He's placed me here to do.

yup! (: and seeking renewed strength to study for His glory which was really tough today cos i reallyreallyreallyreallyreally didnt feel like studying cos i took one look at thermochem and i wanted to flop over and die. BUT His strength is perfect, when our strength is gone (: so i ploughed through about three thermochem questions then i did physics and i finished my math tutorial! yaye claps (:

and amazing what He can help me do when i dont feel like doing my work, so (:

just a last thought: 1peter3:4 its what's inside that matters. (:

AND i will survive this week! bearing my prayer in mind. (:

YIPES. the blog picture is gone so the whole things looks terrible and i can hardly see anything with all the white.. but its ok haha i'll fix it um. sometime. but yup studying is really tiring and somedays i just feel like throwing in the towel [or the books in this case] but reviewing family camp messages is THE thing to do ;D happyhappy many wonderful truths that've kept me going over the past week, even though i had reallyyyy bad monday blues on um monday haha.

reviewing the second evening message of family camp on the "vanities of life" and in DIRECT answer to what i'd been praying about, He reminded me in eccles 2:17 that all the things we have on this earth are just passing pleasures and never have, never should be anything that we hold on to. and eccles12:13-14 [which is really like!] that the CONCLUSION of the matter is that we simply trust Him, and eccles3:11- He'll make everything beautiful, in its time. (:

then came learning to dwell and meditate on His Word, which is something im still trying very hard to do, but anw. 2tim2:7, to have understanding to His Word and to stay grounded and focused, come what may.

and then finally came psalm1, 2cor1:8-10 and phil1:6. to learn to walk in His ways and DELIGHT in His Word-

"blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor stands in the path of sinners, nor sits in the seat of the scornful. but his delight is in the law of the Lord, and in His law he meditates day and night." -psalm1:1-2

and learning how to trust Him, draw from His strength no matter how terribly heavy the workload may ba, to believe that He will complete the good work He began in me and theres a huuuuuuuge sign hung on me that says 'dont judge me yet theres an unfinished part!'

and i'll be perfect just according to His plan, fashioned by the Master's loving hand! (: